Losers;Champions

It’s been a month since I’ve been blogging. Whenever I tried to type a new post, I would delete them cos’ I don’t have the stamina to type. It would be a long post and I don’t feel like writing down my thoughts. But now, I think I want to post a new post.

This week is the September holiday. It’s really very relaxing to have a week holiday. I usually sleep at 12am and wake up at 10am. Unfortunately for me, I have to do my homework and have to study for SA2.

Recently, my results were very bad. I screwed up my CA2. I hate school! School is boring and stressful. Talking about school, apparently, it seems like I have problems with friendships.

I created the game and in the end, lost the game. They created the game and kicked me out. They think I’m just a thrash, throw me whenever they want and pick me up when they need me. What an absurd behaviour they have.

I ain’t some people that are buy-and-throw-away. Saying ‘hi’ to me and then badmouthed about me behind my back, this is what I call hypocrisy. I hate hypocrites. They are just bastards. They don’t care how you feel as long as they are happy, they don’t bother about you.

Please, if you think that backstabbing people is fun, try it first. If you don’t want to be a hypocrite, then leave me alone and don’t bother me again! I don’t need your sympathy.

The reason why I lost the game is because you’re too cunning. I gave up on you because you’re hopeless. You’re just pathetic. You’re, in fact, a loner. You’re just seeking-attention so that you have friends. Let me tell you this, you’re just like me, a vicitm.

I knew this day would come. You think that is cool, but it isn’t. I fear that you will just be a boy sitting by the corner, crying all day long. No one to rescue you, no one to sympathise you because you’re just hiding the fact.

No one lives with a happy ending.

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Yesterday, we went to Bedok to celebrate Nicholas Soo and Joshua’s late birthday. We decided to eat at Spageddies at Bedok. Why the hell do we go there and eat? It’s so ulu and far!

Nevertheless, we still went. The first thing we went there, we can see waiters sitting down, using handphones. Some were even eating. Feedback form please! I can’t stop bitching about them. They are just disgusting.

Fortunately for them, the food was quite nice and filling. Count yourselves lucky, waiters/waitresses. After eating, Joshua had to leave. So, only the rest of us went to ECP to fly kite.

My first time flying kite! It was fun although I failed several times trying to let the kite fly. While we were fixing the kites, there was a couple that was so gross. They were french kissing in the public for at least 15 minutes. Gosh, what has the world become?

Oops, I am so bitchy and K.P.O! My apologies.

It was a tiring day yesterday and today is just another boring day.

What if…

I decided to start blogging again because I felt very bored and tried to make my blog alive again. These few days were very hectic. There were a lot of tests and I didn’t have time to go online for 2 weeks. That’s crazy but somehow, I manage to resist the temptation.

Anyways, Lady GaGa concert is this coming Wednesday! Omg, I can’t wait to watch her concert at the Fort Canning Park! She rocks! I love her songs and her fashion are quite nice.

Oh yes, today is Singapore’s birthday. I merely forgot about it -.- This year’s National Day is far much better and hilarious compared to the previous years.The National Day theme song is very nice! I love the song because it is a slow rock. Very soothing to listen.

Just now, I went to Ion Orchard with Ntjj. It was quite crowded even though it is already 9pm. We walked around and see so many high-class goods like Louis Vuitton, Miu Miu, Burberry. We thought of going in but we were afraid that everyone would be looking at us. We were wearing slippers, for goodness sake. It would be so embarrassing!

We went to the supermarket at the top floor and Ntjj took the trolley without the basket. He acted high-class but instead he made a joke of us! Haha! We immediately ran out of the supermarket.

We went to Coffee Bean too and ordered drinks. When the cashier asked us for names, I said “Louis” and Ntjj said “Vutton.” Apparently, she didn’t know how to spell it but she knew what we meant and she laughed. Embarrassing! Haha!

Did I mention to you about my phone? Let me tell you this, my phone spoilt 3 weeks ago and I sent it for repair last week. I collected it 2 days ago. The good thing is that they changed the frame of the phone and the camera but the bad thing is that my contacts are all gone! If you want to leave your number here, please do so.

By the way, I want to talk about friendship. Till today, I don’t believe that friendship exists in this world. It’s very complicated, especially when you just made friends and you got ditched by them or you ditched them. What is true friendship? I still can’t figure it out.

Friendship is about bonding? When you are in trouble, your friend would help you? Apparently, it’s the opposite for me, except for some friends though. So, maybe that’s the reason why I am so lonely and anti-social because I don’t believe in true friendship anymore.

However, I am quite close with some friends. That’s why I have very few friends, going to school sitting there alone and read a book everyday. It’s like a routine. I don’t talk to many people in class. No wonder my friends keep saying I am quiet and anti-social.

Goodbye

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I’m different from you, all of you
Each other we’ve never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won’t be for good.
Whenever I’m mad it hurts me so bad
And you don’t even care
I don’t know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won’t be there.
The streaks on my arm they’ve done me no harm
They’re only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They’ll be there again and again.
If I’m mad at you I’ll hurt myself too
But that doesn’t really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit’s bruised and battered.
I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don’t need me and we don’t need we
And that’s how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-
I love you, but goodbye.

This poem is so powerful. I love the poem. Sometimes we have to let go of some things.

Goodbye friendship.

SA1 coming!

I was totally busy with my revision! I didn’t have time to go online and I have to sleep late everyday. I will try to recall what we did on last saturday.

On last Saturday, Jun Xiang, Nicholas Tan, Nicholas Wu, Nicky, Hwee Young, Shaun and me went to marina square to eat at Jack’s Place. The food is nice and the service is better than United Square.The cake was Kiwi Cheesecake. It was super delicious! You should try one! You will be tempted to eat more!

After that, we went to Tanjong Pagar for ‘Jun Xiang Arena Tour 2009 (Limited Edition)’ at Party World. Apparently, Shaun and Nicky has to leave, so it was left with me, Nicholas, Jun Xiang, Hwee Young and Nicholas Wu.

At first, we were not high, but as we started to sing, we became very hard. Nicholas was mostly singing all the psycho and emo songs! Jun Xiang sang most of Ayumi’s songs while I sang Angela’s and F.I.R songs.

Then, Nicholas hit a glass and it drop to the floor, but it didn’t break. The last time we went to KBox, he broke a glass. Anyways, I think Party World cheated our money.

Next, we went to AMK to meet Wei Yang(I don’t know him) and watched a movie. Somehow, there was some drama outside the ticketing booth and I shall not say it.

When we reached the MRT station, the MRT to Marina Bay was coming and it was the last train. Jun Xiang and me ran up the escalator but too late. We went different escalators somehow and we ended going separate ways. Jun Xiang went to take 88 while I waited and surprisingly, there was another train coming to tpy.

I took a taxi at TPY home.The most frustrating moment was the taxi-driver! It was 11.58 and he didn’t press the meter fare until when it reaches 00.00, he pressed the meter fare. Damn jian! I was charged with midnight charges(extra 50%). WTH! Damn him! I hate him!

I didn’t have much time to go online for the past few days. I needed to revise for my exams. Exams are just 4 days away!

I am trying to be in momentum of study!

My Birthday; Shaun Ho’s Birthday!

Today is my birthday! I am so happy! And apparently, Shaun Ho’s birthday falls on the same year, month and date!

I just wasted 15 hours of my birthday life in school and sleeping! But I thank everyone who wishes me A Happy Birthday and all the presents that I received! I shall not say much now.

Happy Birthday to you and me,

Happy Birthday to you and me,

Happy Birthday to Shaun Ho and me,

Happy Birthday to you and me!

Food is the best medicine!

I just came back from the Serangoon Stadium and I need food! Surprisingly, I passed my2.4km run, but I don’t know the timing. I hope my timing is quite good:)

I am now super tired! Leg cramps are aching me! Hunger is killing me! This few days, I didn’t have much time to blog because of school work and band, but now, band is over! So, I can concentrate on my studies!

I have been lagging behind everyone, but I hope I can get good results!

Tuesday

Ms Tan: 3K, anyone wants to get the forms for the readers’ digest?”

Class: (No one replied)

Ms Tan: They are offering a special promotion of a free 1-year trial!”

Almost everyone went to take the form, and some people even jostled their way to snatch the forms from her. So retarded! Free stuff people start to take, not free people don’t want. Apparently, I went to take the form too! It’s free! Just take it!

Luckily, today is Friday. I can have a break from school!

Oh yeah, I remembered easter week! Mrs Chong asked the sec 1s to dance at the courtyard on Tuesday, sec 2s on Wednesday, sec 3s on Thursday, sec 4s on Friday. So coincidentally, 2F was chosen and guess who is in that class. Hendrik Kwek! Joshua and I were laughing at him dancing(though he rarely dance at that moment).

Okay, I got to do my homework! Bye!

7 more days!

MSSB got gold.

Today is the SYF day! I am so happy that there is a break after today! We had a crazy practice yesterday from 8am to 9pm. Today, we gave our best and we received a GOLD award.

Everyone was very sad and was emo-ing in the bus. We had practice very hard but we didn’t reach our target.

I think we deserved a GWH but probably because the judges were strict because today is the last day of SYF. Our conductor and some other conductors say that we should get a GWH. I am totally very sad.

I really don’t like my junior though sometimes I pity him.

Firstly, he always talk back to me. I asked him to ‘down 10′, he just walked away. I scolded him, he just ignore me. Nicholas Wu asked him to ‘down 10′, he also don’t want to. Why we punish him? Because he keep day dreaming and talk loudly. He is also very irritating!

Secondly, during SYF, he nearly dropped his tuba at ‘N’ (To My Comrades) and knocked the stand. Then, he knocked the stand again. But luckily, he didn’t drop his mouthpiece cos’ I stuck his mouth piece into his tuba.

Thirdly, sometimes he wouldn’t listen to me and Nicholas Wu. We ask him not to play then he sometimes play.

I really don’t know what’s wrong with him.

I have 4 tests tomorrow so I got to study now. Bye.

Stress! 4 days to SYF!

I am feeling so stress now! For the whole week, I had band everyday from 2.30 to 6.30. By the time I reached home, it was already 8. After eating and bathing, it would be 8.30.

I was sleeping everyday around 10-11. It was super tiring! I had to sleep late and wake up early!

This is so unfair! My classmates can sleep early and can concentrate in class but I can’t. Let’s just hope that after SYF, there is a long break! Yeah, let’s hope so.

Today is the last saturday practice before SYF. Lets try to put in our best though I don’t think I can wake up:P

Anyways, I have 1 good news to share! Ms Tan is eligible for the ‘President’s Award for Teachers 2009′! I bet it must be some prestigious award! We will always support you, Ms Tan! Go go, Ms Tan!

SYF is coming! 8 GwH, many gold within 5 days. That’s a lot! Let’s wish for a miracle to happen on that day! Miracles do happen sometimes.

Got to sleep, if not I cannot wake up later! Bye!

Long journey.

Holidays just ended. This holiday is totally ruined! I thought of enjoying the holidays but it seemed more like normal school days.

On last Monday, we had band from 1.30 to 10. Thats a little crazy but SYF is coming, so we have to practice very hard!

On last Tuesday, we had band from 8 to 4. That day was really a bad day. We got scolded for not playing well. We knew it too (I guess). We got pumped badly. It was super tiring.

On last Wednesday, we had band from 8 to 5. Same as usual, we got pumped and scolded again for not playing well. I was totally exhausted!

On last Thursday, I went to Jun Xiang’s stay-over outing. It was quite fun, not too boring. I reached vivocity at 3.30 and we went to SCH to listen Chong Boon Band play. It was about 5 and we went to check in to our hotel. It cost around $370 and we saw, in the internet, the rooms. It was large and spacious. We booked 2 rooms.

To our horror, it was super small! Omg, they cheated our money! You walked in to the room, on your left is the toilet, walked 1 metre straight and on your right is your bed. Basically, from the front door to the balcony door is only 5m. Thats freaking small and why the hell is there balcony?! They didn’t say that there was a balcony, I supposed so! The balcony was like 1/3 of the room.

We went to eat dinner at sakae sushi. It’s expensive and is very little. They only have teppanyaki. Thats very sad and there is only 1 chef, so dinner took quite long.

After dinner, we went back to vivocity and bought drinks and 1 small bottle of alcohol. We planned to spike Jun Xiang, haha!

We went back to our hotel and started to watch ‘hollow man’ at the samsung flat screen television(at least got something good). While Jun Xiang bathed in the other room, we poured out some of the tonic water that we bought and poured alcohol into it.

We decided to do some night activities and asked him to drink water. Jun Xiang was easily fooled by us! He drank it and said that it was bitter and disgusting. We said that it was tonic water, and he really believed us, haha!

I went to Jun Xiang’s room and played Mahjong with Amos, Jia wei and Jun Xiang. I think I won the most in mahjong. Then, we got bored of mahjong and started to play cards. Apparently, Fredy, James and Amos were tired and went back to the previous room and slept. Jia Wei, Jun Xiang and me started playing ‘black-jack’ with chips, which will be converted into real money. We played ‘taiti’, ‘in-between’ and etc.

We played cards from 12am to 5pm. Then, Jia wei got tired and rest while Jun Xiang and me were watching a movie(something like Phantom of the opera, forget title). I decided to sleep at 6am.

I woke up at 11am and packed up my stuff. We left the hotel by 12noon and went to eat at Carl’s Junior. Apparently, someone was emo-ing there, so it was quite boring.

I went home at about 3 and slept. I was super tired. I woke up at 6 and had my dinner before having tuition.

Last Saturday was the exchange programme @ Ang Mo Kio Secondary School. Their band was great! Our band screwed up everything. Everyone suddenly stopped playing at J3 and played again at J6. Thats too drama!

Yesterday, we performed in front of the school. The first performance was terrible but the second performance was better than the first performance. Some marist just don’t appreciate music. I can’t stand them.

In the afternoon, Joshua, Ian and me went for learning journey to harmony centre. The reason why I went there, despite my knee injury was for the CIP hours and free air-conditioner. I have no idea why the school wants us to go to harmony centre. We learn nothing from there!

Today is very boring. I had lessons till 3.35. I was very tired after school. School sucks.

Till then. Bye~

Terrible Day.

Yesterday was a very special day! It’s my mom birthday! Jun Xiang and Nicholas went to my house and they gave my mom some chocolate. They played in my house from 3 to 9. That’s a long time and because of them, I only managed to do some of my homework, and I cannot practice my violin for my violin exam on this thursday.

Today was really a bad day for me! I was feeling very sick in the morning. My whole body was aching and I was having a bad headache. I cannot concentrate for all the lessons! During recess, I slept in the library. The headache gets worse and worse. After the long lesson(3.35), I went back home and immediately slept. Ironically, my body temperature rises. It started to become better after I’ve eaten my meal but the headache is still there.

Hope that I get well by tomorrow =)

Today is such a boring day! I went to church and I actually dozed off during the sermon. I was too tired to open my eyes. Anyways, my brother is going to graduate from Pulau Tekong! Woo~ Then, he will either able to come home or stay in camp. Let’s just hope he can go home everyday!

Oh ya, he got back his ‘A’ level results and it is not bad for someone who is in SRJC. He got a few As, a few Bs and a E(General paper -.-).

I’m watching channel 5 and channel U simultaneously! Tomb Raider so cool, especially Angelina Jolie! Okay, going to sleep.